Faith

What does it mean to be truly faithful? To me, it means surrendering to the unknown (Myself). Through my experiences I have faith in myself when I know, despite all odds that everything is going to be ok. Despite my doubts, I must admit that I am constantly plunging into the unknown. I never know what’s going to happen next because everything is always changing. Yes, to be faithful I must release my doubts and fears, but everyday I practice this and it becomes easier; this is something I must admit to myself. I have nothing to fear. The only way I can describe how I experience faith in my day to day life is to tell you what I’ve been experiencing lately. So here is my story……

Two years ago, my wonderful boyfriend and I decided to leave the city in which we were living at the time. We both agreed that it was time for a change; the city pace seemed to be increasing as the days went by and everything was becoming ridiculously expensive. In the two weeks before we left, we got rid of almost everything. I have lived in the city my whole life and this process was tough, and yet liberating at the same time. I decided to let go of most of my prized material possessions. As you can probably imagine, this was a big step for the material human I had become. Sometimes, I’ll admit, that I feel bad for feeling regret over letting these things go. It’s silly really, I mean, these are material things, they come and go. Anyways, after almost everything was gone, we were ready to hit the road with our rental car and our two survival backpacks. We decided that we would go back to basics and leave the ‘system’ behind us as much as we possibly could. Admittedly, this was a huge leap of faith on both our part. Besides camping once and a while on family trips I had not had any long term ‘bush’ experience. However, we both had the willingness to learn and experience so off we went. We didn’t even know where we were headed (except that we were headed toward Vancouver). We figured we had come this far in letting go, we might as well put our full trust in God at this point. As we travelled along, I noticed that certain messages were appearing in my reality (no coincidence). Keeping faith in Myself I decided to follow my instincts and travel where I was supposed to go. As the messages continued, I noticed that we were being directed to a specific location; a place called Tofino. This particular location name was consistently being mentioned whether it was from people or advertisements along the way. As I continued to pay close attention to my reality, I noticed that thoughts in my ‘head’ were being answered immediately in my perceived ‘outer’ reality. So, needless to say, my boyfriend and I ended up in Tofino B.C. We soon set up camp in the majestic-like rainforest right beside the ocean and later on, we built our own little (and I mean little) cabin/shed. It even had a metal barrel (that we found) which we used as a wood burning stove. It was cozy…..and at times very damp! The ocean was a 5 min walk away where we would take long walks or go pick mussels off the rocks for dinner. It was a very simple way of life. As far as money, we didn’t use a lot. We ran completely out of coin a few months into our trip and had to rely on our own creativity to make money if we needed it to buy anything. We started picking bottles and brought them into town with our dolly…..I even baby-sat for a while, but for the majority of the 6 months we were out there we didn’t work. We relaxed and talked about life, God, and the Universe. Making the choice to not work was a big leap of faith for me because I desperately believed my whole life that if I wasn’t working, I wouldn’t be able to survive. Trust me, you can survive without money! The traditional Native way of life is a perfect example of this…….they never needed money, and they were very close and happy with each other. Not only were they taught by their elders from day one how to be self-sufficient, but they helped each other survive. Being in the rainforest and living with the bare necessities, I began to appreciate everything a lot more. I realized that I didn’t need anything at all. We have left the rainforest and now we are living in an apartment in a small town; I feel spoiled just to be able to have a bath! My boyfriend and I were working for a little while but our ‘boss’ was not worth working for and frankly we were both tired of working for other people so we quit. We have decided to take yet another leap of faith and start doing what we love to do instead of working for a living. A day after quitting our jobs I found out that I was pregnant! Ever since then my boyfriend has been on the computer non stop doing what he loves to do (his writing). He has published several articles onto his blog…..and it’s really exciting to see new people coming to his site each day. I’m really glad that he has found such an amazing outlet to express himself on because frankly, he has many brilliant things to communicate to the world. I admire his determination in doing this. He would really like to be able to have a family and not work and I wish for the same thing…..I have heard of quite a few people who have decided to make a living by writing on blogs and they do it quite well. A few of them eventual write e-books or do what ever they choose. As for me, I have started to sell things on e-bay (which I really enjoy)….I am also doing writings of my own (as you can see) and generally just enjoying each moment as it comes. I am happy doing what I enjoy and I am always open to new ideas. I’m glad that I could write this little blurb about Me and my adventures…perhaps you could tell me about yours? Talk to you soon,

Your friend,

God